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self [Mar. 4th, 2011|01:46 pm]
chewybanhbao
Don't throw yourself out on another's whim. People change, as do intentions and as a result, consequences. Live for yourself. Love those around you. But realized that they've got their own agendas.
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stones [Mar. 1st, 2011|11:36 am]
chewybanhbao
Most times than not, I just want to give up, say fuck it to the ideals I hold sacred, surrender to the harden of my heart, grow bitter and lose faith in humanity, but then I remember those same ideals. That honest enabling resiliencey is strength and growth. That people and lovers will break your heart. That the world will throw stones of jagged edge at you, that you must not fortify and throw them back but rather become a river: let them skip, sink, and weather for awhile. Those stones will grow peaceful and smooth.

Be stream, lay at your throwers feet, show them that everything that toughens can be made soft. This is the challenge of being humnan. Never harden.
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(no subject) [Feb. 28th, 2011|02:33 pm]
chewybanhbao
To love. To be loved. To never forget your own insignificance. To never get used to the unspeakable violence and the vulgar disparity of life around you. To seek joy in the saddest places. To pursue beauty to its lair. To never simplify what is complicated or complicate what is simple. To respect strength, never power. Above all, to watch. To try and understand. To never look away. And never, never, to forget.
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(no subject) [Feb. 21st, 2011|10:29 am]
chewybanhbao
"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before, she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together. But if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being a human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break- her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more then she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there."
- Bob Marley
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(no subject) [Feb. 15th, 2011|10:54 am]
chewybanhbao
It makes me wonder how many times we forgive just because we don't want to lose someone, even if they don't deserve our forgiveness.

It's just complicated. I want everything from you. But really, I'd be satisfied with a smile.
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2011 [Jan. 12th, 2011|12:21 pm]
chewybanhbao
Goodbye 2010. You were a bitch.

All I got out of you this year was gaping hole in my heart. And everyday since the new year it’s been a constant struggle to bandage it up somehow, however temporary, just to function and go through the day. Sometimes I wish life was like my dreams. Perfect. Effortless. Everything going the way I want it to. Too bad I have to wake up.

Nobody wants to hear this, but the person that you want the most is sometimes the person you’re best without. You were everything that was bad for me. Make no mistake I’m crushed black and blue. I should’ve known. I guess I can say I have a knack for choosing precisely the things that are worst for me.

Your picture is up on my wall. It's not even a good picture of you. I've seen better looking smiles but there's just something about that smile, that side-ways smirk on your face when you smile, leaves me with an aching tingle in my chest. I've always loved that smile. The silence isn't so bad 'til I look at my hands &feel sad cause the spaces between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly.
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(no subject) [Oct. 17th, 2010|09:20 pm]
chewybanhbao
Do you know that feeling of flying? Do you know that feeling where you're weightless, where you lose inhibition and just float among the clouds? Have you ever felt like you could just sleep on the stars and only wonder about the world which breathes under your eyes? And when you're that high, I wonder if you ever felt almost lonely. Whenever I'm flying in a plane, above the skies, I feel like the steel cables that have fastened me to a life of captivity have been slightly tweaked one by one, to give me a hint of freedom and solitude away from people. When I'm high in the skies, I seem to feel calmer and ironically, safer. When I'm above the world, I feel above it all. I feel like I'm above my problems, above the bullshit. No, I don't feel infinite, but immortal for just that one moment in the sky.
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someday [Sep. 17th, 2010|11:45 pm]
chewybanhbao
One day you will realize how truly gifted you are, with words, with numbers, with shapes, with hearts. You are the rain, steady as can be, flowing freely down windowpanes without a care in the world and sometimes you are the rarest summer breezes bringing a coldness which transcends warmth in all the best ways possible. If there are those in the world who deserve happiness, you will be one of them, one of the few who don’t deserve the burdens cast upon them and the moments which fill your heart with a weight. You will be free, someday.
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i wrote this for you [Sep. 14th, 2010|06:44 pm]
chewybanhbao
I don’t just want your heart. I want your flesh, your skin and blood and bones, your voice, your thoughts, your pulse and most of all your fingerprints, everywhere.
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i wrote this for you [Sep. 3rd, 2010|12:48 am]
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